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...it's one of those days again.
ifeel so down nowsadays,
ifeel sad.
ifeel so lifeless,
looking at th same walls,
walking on th same tiles,
for every second of my life.
igrow restless,
igrow sad,
with every breath itake,
it only makes me feel more fucked up,
ifeel so lonely,
ifeel so fucked up,
slowly,
ifeel depressed.
its liek last year,
its happening again,
everyone's gone,
that empty feeling,
that feeling of being neglected,
asking myself,
where did everybody go?
maybe its my fault,
maybe ideserved this,
for my mistakes.
you especially,
imissyou..
ireally do.
every moment,
ithink of you,
trying not to get swallowed,
because you hold me up,
you make me stay strong.
but it slowly swallows me,
making me fall deeper and deeper,
ifeel depressed,
its happening liek last year..
sigh.
im scared,
being alone,
being so far yet so close to you,
that iknow you're just in my arms reach,
but ican never take hold of you now,
imissyou, you know that? ):
it's eating me up in th insides,
slowly,
and idont know how to stop it,
making me feel empty and lifeless,
making me remember th past,
those painful and lonely times,
idont cry anymore,
because im so tired of it,
and when isee you going thru this because of me,
ifeel touched,
yet sad,
because icause this,
yet,
im staying strong for you,
even if it kills me,
even if its so cold..
because,
iloveyou.
where has everybody gone to?
where has that liveliness gone to?
imissyou,
iloveyou,
dont leave me alrite my love?
